Tuesday, October 20, 2020
Daily writing prompt: what's the weather outside your window doing right now?
The rain stopped sometime this morning, but the sky won't clear before tonight or maybe tomorrow. The asphalt parking lot still looks a little wet. We're downwind from Lake Erie and Lake Michigan here, and the clouds rule most of the cold season.
I'm not forever restless and ready to leave any given place like I once was, but if I move along in the future, climate or weather will have everything to do with it. My sinuses never liked Ohio humidity, and my lungs have joined in that chorus. They both want to go to the Southwest until wildfire season comes. Then there's no good place to be except maybe the Dakotas. My knees, meanwhile, have grown creaky and they object to my enduring winters here. Climate change or desert air would help with that, or I could go to Florida for the few months between hurricane season and extreme humidity, except for the bugs there. I know, by this time, that I'm not going to find one place with a great year-round climate except a couple of places I can't afford.
I know people who live on wheels. Needless to say, there are drawbacks to that, too.
The bottom line, though, is simpler than that. I don't get much attachment to places, and there's a family history going back more than a century on both sides. What I get attached to is people. I have grandchildren, "family of origin," and close friends now that I never dreamed of in my younger days. I'll probably move around this part of the city, but I won't be leaving the area "for good" without a damn good reason.
Sunday, October 22, 2017
Another couple of years went by
Saturday, January 30, 2016
Still alive/around
I'm still around, but it's past time for an update.
I have gone through the entire Social Security Disability/SSI process and am awaiting formal results. I went all the way through the "final" appeal hearing, and I received a letter from the hearing officer. My lawyer and I believe this letter means I have been determined to be disabled, but we could not make heads or tails of the rest of it. I'm still awaiting clarification.
My medical situation continues confusing. The sleep diagnoses are sleep apnea (relatively mild) and hypersomnia, which just means I sleep too much in the daytime but do not have narcolepsy. I'll get a second opinion on the narcolepsy when I can use big-city medical resources. My other conditions are basically stable. I discovered during our first cold snap this year that the arthritis in my left foot flares badly when the temperature drops.
In the meantime, I have been seeing a pulmonologist (lung doctor), who always sounds confident. It has become obvious that she is guessing what is wrong because she keeps ordering tests that fit different diseases. My guess says the Breathing Association was correct in the beginning. They said asthma with indoor allergies.
I continue using Linux, but I changed to LinuxMint 17.2. I gave up Windows because it's difficult and annoying to install the dual boot (keep both) without training and background in this technology. Having done that, I began running into other problems that I cannot solve without much more knowhow, and LinuxMint's oversold "community" has shown little ability to understand my level of ability or inability. All the Linux who tried to help me work in the computer field, and their skills are too far above mine for them to understand my questions. I don't understand the jargon, and they don't understand questions not using it. I will go back to Windows when I get another laptop. That will be as soon as possible. The two laptops I own are too old to run Windows and pretty old even for "lightweight" Linux varieties.
I bought a tablet in July of 2014. Admittedly, I bought the cheapest one I could find new. I believe the Android version was 4.4 or thereabouts. Even with an accessory keyboard (extra cost and weight), I could only develop indifferent skill with it. The Android apps often either cut programs down too much for me to understand, put functions where I cannot find them, or use some approach I am now aware of. I never figured out security very well, either. Now the tablet has been taken over by ransom-ware and I have no idea what to do with it. Whatever happens to the tablet, my bottom line is knowing how to work in Windows, how to get help, and easily finding freeware for it.
My future plans are unknown. I expect to get some amount of money for the "back" amount of my Social Security and/or SSI, but the amount and payment procedure are determined by whether I get one, the other, or some of each. Medical coverage (Medicare or Medicaid) is even more uncertain.
I miss the resources I had in Columbus (transit, MetroParks, big libraries, choices about medical resources) and I still have close friends there, so I'll probably go back there, but my asthma and other factors will determine whether I stay, move, or do something else.
For those who will ask, I'm still very active in 12-Step recovery.
Thursday, February 13, 2014
Linux and personal update
First, the Linux update. As I type this, I have been using Pinguy Linux for a couple of months. I have dual-installed it on two laptops, both of which run Windoze 7 otherwise. I re-installed it on this one because of a booting (startup) issue, and that has worked well. This netbook has no DVD drive, but saving the Pinguy download to an SD card solved that. In addition, it gave me an entire set of software that I can carry around in my pocket if need be.
Most of this works the same way it did in Windows although the wording may differ and program names always do. Setting up different software is easier because I don't have to download or pay for any of it; it's included free and is part of Pinguy. All I have to do is click a "menu" button in the upper left corner of the screen and find the correct category of software. The actual installation is pretty much exactly the same. Most other functions reside there as well. The menus get long but I like the organization.
I spend most of my time in Mozilla Firefox, a popular browser that works with almost everything on the Internet, and I do occasional word processing (Libre Office). All of this is familiar. Now and then I use something else. No problem. The desktop differs from Windows; there are more useful things there. Also, the browser screen does not automatically take up the full screen, but it can be set to do so from that same menu button. If I leave it as only part of the screen, I tend to run into things in Docky, which is basically the task bar containing things like the trash can (recycle in Windows) that people use often spread around different sides of the screen. All in all, the big problem was installing Pinguy in the first place. Once installed, it works more easily than I had expected.
Now for the personal update. I have had an interesting time at the same time that most of my days have been boring. I have had no cash income between selling my junk car before Thanksgiving and receiving my income tax return a few days ago. Therefore, I spent very little time in stores other than grocery buying with my food benefits. I find little that I can do with no car, no money, and no job. I have however caught up on most of my Internet activities. I actually read a bit less than I did before due to that.
The transit here lacks reliability, evening operating hours, and intelligent design. I have been using it anyhow when I could get the $1 per trip fare. I celebrated when I finally got one of my bicycles back. I have been riding it whenever possible. When my tax return came in, I ordered a trailer for the bicycle. Given that I will not have money to buy a car in the near future, I will use the trailer to make the bike do jobs such as big grocery runs and trips to the laundromat.
I continue in the process of trying to get a disability income. I received my notice that my first appeal was denied pretty much as expected. I am waiting a while to continue the process because I have Medicaid now and I am using it to gather much more evidence of my medical condition.
The two largest current events in my illness/disability story are (a) I am now taking an extended-release generic for nitroglycerin (heart medication) as an experiment to see whether it helps my symptoms and (b) I have a sleep study scheduled for the 20th of this month.
The shortness of breath and constant fatigue do seem to improve with the medicine. I may have found a cause for my un-wellness. That is a good news-bad news kind of thing. The bad news is that I might have heart problems. The good news is that those issues might get me my disability.
Most of the people who know me and also the medical people expect the sleep study to find apnea. Given that I snore too much to sleep on my back (I wake myself up) and have had insomnia my entire life, they are probably right.
As I mentioned above, I have another post in mind. You will see that as soon as I have the energy to write it.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Pinguy Linux update
I will probably keep the computer that is down and try other things. After all, I have nothing to lose. I keep reading how Pinguy is "user friendly" and usable for anyone, even the inexperienced. I don't think so. Linux in general is over-sold. I have been pursuing this particular will-of-the-wisp for several years. It has cost me a prior computer and forced me to "restore" another to factory settings, losing all of my documents and pictures in the process. Moral of the story: user friendly is an easy term to say, but actual results may vary.
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Pinguy Linux
I have yet to install Pinguy on my hard drive because I'm being very cautious about saving my Windows files and about noting differences in operation from Windows systems, but I think I will be using the Linux setup most of the time in the future.
Monday, October 28, 2013
There's some sort of "update" on Blogger, and it showed me a peak on page views recently. While that may be someone stumbling across this by accident, it does mean I'm still a blogger in some technical sense.
I'm not sure what I've published here, but life has taken a fairly strange turn or two. I will publish more when I have permission, but for now I'll just say I'm living in a corn field in central Ohio. I have applied for a disability through Social Security, been turned down and appealed. I really do not expect to receive Social Security or SSI, but might be able to get Medicaid long enough to get some of my issues addressed. I will be looking for work after a few things here resolve and I have an assignment scheduled beginning in December.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Book Review: With Liberty and Justice for Some
Greenwald spares neither parties nor personalities; liberals, conservatives, and moderates will each find some discomfort here. He also removes the illusions of those who still see the media as eager to expose wrongdoing. Greenwald concludes with a contrasting chapter on the lot of the less powerful, pointing out that the US prison population is huge and tends to be minorities and poor people. He points out that this growing prison population, largely non-violent drug users, does not correlate to either lower crime rates or reductions in drug use. In this chapter, he gives a good background to suggest why this continues despite its inability to achieve the stated results.
The flaws in Greenwald’s communication derive from his failure to go beyond passion. Except in the last chapter, he gives little background for his characters or their times. For example, why would Nixon do something as desperate as the Watergate break-in when he was leading in the polls and very likely to be re-elected without that? Why do people who make millions of dollars annually seek to make more millions by violating the law?
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Unintentional Communication
Michelle Bachmann (remember her?) knew she would not have to use facts and figures to please the Tea Party. She was doing well without that, but then Newsweek put her picture on their cover looking crazy. Really crazy. Someone claimed that "crazy" was the only kind of picture available, and she drowned in the waves of laughter. Ron Paul comes and goes in the polls. The problem with him seems to be honesty. Congressman Paul appears to be a libertarian at heart, and that works fine on issues such as smaller government and lower taxes, but he would rather not outlaw sex or attempt to imprison anybody the Tea Party disapproves of. Governor Perry of Texas tends to talk like a drunk in a bar, which would be less of a problem if his many competitors pointed it out less often. Herman Cain knew the right words (except for that 9-9-9 thing) but quickly got a reputation for sexual harassment and at least one long-term adulterous affair. The Tea Party does not approve of sex for fun under any circumstances. Mitt Romney has somehow maintained a decent position in the polls through all of this. I suspect he depends on the non-Tea Party wing of the Republican Party, because he makes sense when he talks most of the time. Unfortunately, he has a record that would serve a Democrat well, he changes his stated positions often, and he is a Mormon. While I see Mormons as a kind of fundamentalist Christian, many in the Tea Party see them as some bizarre “other” creature, possibly out to destroy them.
So all of these people parade before the devout followers of Rush Limbaugh et al., trying to reach the Republican convention with enough delegates to grab the nomination so they can run against President Obama. They debate again and again, looking more and more foolish. They attack each other, using old pictures, past statements, and wild accusations.
The great thing for Obama is that they also parade before the rest of the USA. Obama will not need to spend as much money as usual on making new advertising against whichever one of these people outlasts the others. He can just use video of the debates and information the Republicans have already uncovered in this primary season.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Book Review: Pictures of the Mind
Miriam Boleyn-Fitzgerald
FT Press, 2010
Here's a book on brain imaging, and it turns out to have everything to do with communication. After all, communication of any sort originates in a brain (mind) and is directed to other brains (minds). Beyond that, people find it easy to believe they understand their own actions, moral values, and identity. Many people even believe that their memories given a clear and complete picture of their lives. This book addresses all of those questions, and the answers will enlighten readers.
Pictures of the Mind opens with a discussion of the differences among people in different non-responsive states; some are essentially dead, some not. Work on those distinctions should matter a grat deal to anyone whose loved one(s) cannot respond to stimuli. In fact, because accidents or illnesses can put anyone in such a state, this matters for all of us.
Having made a strong beginning with that important topic, Pictures of the Mind goes on to examine a new understanding of how people can change their personalities (emotional responses to life) by effort and why that matters so much, which includes a discussion of something I have learned from experience, that meditation is a more effective treatment than medication for some illnesses.
The chapter on happiness should help cheer readers after the serious topics, and happiness turns out to have a serious side itself because happiness and health go together. This also marks Pictures of the Mind as more than a discussion of illness; health, mental as well as physical, needs study. Then comes unhappiness; the next fascinating finding is that addicts have important brain responses in common with people who suffer chronic pain; progress in studying one might lead to progress with the other. This chapter adds a great deal more to that finding.
The most interesting part of the entire book for many readers will be the chapter on morality. This addresses whether the "brain" is exactly the same as the "mind" as well as the fact that the brain handles different moral decisions in measurably different ways, with contradictory results. Equally interesting, young brains do not have the same capacities or the same responses as grown-up brains. A fascinating discussion of legal and moral responsibility ensues, considering both people with impairments and "normal" (no measurable defects) citizens. Of course, spirituality, religion, and whether they are separate from the mind become a running thread in this section.
The chapter on memory (including releasing the power of or even removing traumatic experiences) and the concluding chapter on the "self" continue the fascinating quest to understand what it means to be human. The author is considerate enough to include a list of resources at the end of her book, so readers can continue learning about this fascinating subject.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Book Review: Willful Blindness
Friday, June 24, 2011
Willful Blindness
I hope the importance of this to communication hits readers here immediately. Talking to people who fail to listen even if your subject affects them wastes your time and energy. Finding ways through the barriers stands to improve your communication skills much more than using "might" rather than "may" when some expert deems that appropriate.
Stay tuned for further discussions of this and related subjects.
